It’s been awhile since I’ve written.
I’ve been busy.
I believe I’m quite an adaptable kinda person. This works, go with it. This doesn’t, back out, head another direction. This feels good. This feels bad. As time and life goes on, getting better at knowing oneself, and viewing the world around you better, and what it all means to you. Call it maturity, enlightenment, call it life.
Our farm is on a journey; a vision guided in most by me, but via the ideas and experiences of many others, and ultimately, I believe, by the hand of God, as in His love, he has a plan for me. My purpose. And I am on a journey, separate, but intertwined, with the farm, my family, friends, neighbors, all that would choose to be a part of it.
As I go through my day, I am thinking. Not about sex, or the football team, or how I’m going to get even with so and so, or any petty things, but thinking about the vision (okay I think of all those other things too, I just don’t dwell on them). Who am I – what am I here for – how do I make the world a better place, how do I find happiness.
There are three things that are consuming my thoughts.
1. Getting our artisan cheese enterprise going.
2. Permaculture! Or, the refinement of what previous to this I had called, creating paradise here at our farm
3. My training. My mind – and my body.
You can be sure — whoever you are – even if that you is just me – I do this for myself – if anyone cares to come along – great – if not – perfectly okay by me as well. What I write here will be me. Yes, that is a perfectly good sentence. Maybe ‘a reflection of me’ is a better way to say it.
But #3 is where I will be focusing a great deal of energy in the next 60 days – starting March 1st, and running until April 30th.
That’s 60 days – in which I will transform myself, using nutrition primarily from our farm – in the form of raw 100% grass dairy products – yes folks, perfectly legal for me – not for you – and our 100% grass meats.
"transform myself" – from what – to what. The "from what" is a very personal thing indeed – it is physical – it is mental, and has a huge impact on who I am – and how effective in the world I am.
So diet – food – very critically important -
And then – the next tool – is the Gym. In my case, Anytime Fitness, here in Stoughton. Training for an hour to an hour and a half, at least 5 times per week.
I have been training, in the gym, since Jan 3rd. Now, with this goal in mind, this focus, and this focused nutrition, time to see just how ‘intense’ I can be.
I am 45 years old. I am in the prime of my life in many ways. I have those same feelings of body image, and of age, as most my age do, and a recognition that the forgiveness of youth is over. What I could do, get away with, in my 20’s and 30’s: aint happnin now. How I feel about myself – and the energy and strength my body carries – profoundly effects every other aspect in my life. What I’m willing to take on. How I react to things. Everything.
If you want to come along on this journey – great. It will be interesting, it will be personal, it will be revealing. I would like it very much if someone else was inspired – pumped up – changed for the better. I will be, I know it.
Tomorrow I will start this personal journey with where I’ve come from. I continue to believe that every moment of my life has been training – been leading up to – this moment right now. I will share the significant ‘moments’ that have lead me to this point in this journey.
It is time to release the beast. The focus, the animal, the INTENSITY, the rush, the satisfaction and the reward of an intentional life, and the caring for my body and my mind.
Scott Trautman